Personal.
October 13, 2008I haven’t updated my wordpress in awhile and I must say, I really missed blogging!
A few things have happened since last time. I began a Warrior in Khaini with the name Appetency.
It recently hit Spearman and the equips I was looking to obtain were obtained and I’m hoping to hit my goal of 50 soon and also get good grades on my upcoming midterms.
However, I didn’t write this blog to write much about MS. I’ll get to that later, for now, I had this aching urge to blog and just write some personal stuff. I’m aware that this is as public as ANY website but since when do I care about things like that?
My roommate Christopher Flecker went home for the first time up to New York. We talk about making our room “pro” just about all the time. We bought 4-foot blacklights for our room and set them up around our room and hung white sheets on our walls. I’ll try really hard to get pictures up. Anyways, being all alone in my room this weekend made me realize, I don’t have any true friends. Sure, I have friends to eat dinner with, friends to go to the gym with, watch the stars at night, do homework with on the grass, play cards and eat junk food all day with, but no one I can just honestly talk to. Just pour out a person’s heart takes someone special and I just feel I haven’t met that friend yet. I hope that person comes soon.
Another thing that has been bothering me is the feeling of temporary emotions in college. Everywhere around me, people “hook up” and leave their emotions at home. I’ll admit, I’ve hooked up a few times since I got to Towson for I still feel so weird. I can’t deal with temporary stuff, something inside me is yearning for someone that’s just for sure. Always being there for me, someone loyal and truthful. Maybe it’ll take awhile but I hope it comes.
Well, anyways…
How’s everyone doing?
Andy Pandy, how’s senior year?
Jack, Kevo, Marietta, how is/how was midterms?
Josh, where are you lately !!!!
Guys, let me know how you guys are doing 
Hi Randy, nice to see you’re doing well.
Midterms were okay I suppose. I bet I could have done better by not procrastinating and Mapling… I think I don’t have any true friends here either. I’m dying to go home for December to be with my family and old friends. Anyway, best of luck to you~
Randy you stupid effer, you were supposed to stay home on Saturday so I could’ve seen you after my SAT prep class. T_T
And I’m still a junior, FYI.
…haha JK! we’re playing find-the-mistake
ahh iduno, i keep thinking your a senior along with sarah kim ;[
hows junior year coming though? o.o
well Randy, for about 3 days a week I live on campus cutting myself away from Mapling.
other than that, I was around in FMS.
I hit 200 last week and I think I’ll just log in
to say hi to people and maybe boss with friends or something :p
Midterms are fine… Cindy and I have a best of 3 going with lunch on the line and Im up 1-0 so… yeap, hopefully I win because that means I did well on midterms, haha. They’re basically over and I have one a week now for the next few weeks but it’s manageable.
lol, reading your personal rant, I was thinking to myself “oh shit, Randy’s about to tell us he realized he’s gay!” and then went “oh, its this talk”… We all have that feeling at times. Dont worry about it. I will say this: It might take you forever to find it, but when you find it, the peace you get from it is definitely worth the wait.
from your description, you’re looking for a significant other, not a friend!
If you want to pour out that stuff, plenty of people will listen but I don’t think it’ll be enough for you until you find something beyond that.
While you’re waiting, you can always talk it out with the closest you have to your definition of “true friend.” So i’ll be floating around mr. hamtaro, contact me if you wanna talk.
I don’t think I’ve ever once “hooked up” with anyone but trust me… the wait is worth it when it comes to waiting for someone special to come along, whether it’s in terms of friendship or relationships. I know that from experience. XD It really does take a lot to know who your “true” friend(s) is(/are).
Midterms… haven’t exactly come here yet. o_o I’m still failing in pre-calc (I HATE my math teacher), but I’m doing well in everything else. I can feel midterms coming up pretty soon, though. >_>
Whatever happened to Windiaaa? :<
I’m glad to see you’ve started up again in Khaini. I see you around and stuffs.
I’m starting up my training again after finally hitting my APQ Apples goal, so I hope to pull off something around mid-9x before the end of the year, because I level so slow-like. :3